Thursday, July 12, 2012

Week 23

"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins."  - Bob Moawad

Mr. Moawad isn't saying you don't need others in your life when he says "no one to lean on, rely on". He's simply saying that you are responsible for your own happiness. It's another way of saying that happiness comes from within.

And indeed it does. But too many times we let anxiety & worry creep in... Even if it's just a tiny bit, it takes hold & becomes bigger than it should. We give in to it. It takes over. We start to make excuses for not living the life we were meant to live - "if only (fill in the blank) then everything would be great." Excuses. Really? Yes, that is what we do - we're human. At least I've done it. And I want to stop.

I let anxiety creep in a little last night & woke up this morning with a heavier heart than I've had in quite some time. I want to banish this anxiety. I want to banish excuses.

My life is mine - to share or not, to embrace or not, to live - truly live - or not. And I choose to share my life with my loves ones. I choose to embrace my life - the good, the not so good & the sometimes ugly bits. I choose to truly live my life. I don't want to exist. I want to live my life.

I want to take this amazing journey and make it all it was meant to be. Those who love me will support me. But honestly, if they don't - should I alter my course & rely on them to make my journey amazing? I think not. I think that I can make this journey amazing. Hopefully my outlook will draw others in & help them see that we are each responsible for the quality of our own lives. What we do with what we've been given is our choice. What are we going to choose today? I choose to make today the best day!

I read recently "Be so happy that when others look at you they become happy too". That is how I want to live. Welcome to the day my life really begins.

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