A single event can awaken within us a stranger totally unknown to us. To live is to be slowly born. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
I’m in my forties… not a big deal to me to admit. I actually think this is a pretty great decade – at least so far, it’s still early in for me but I’m hoping the rest of it turns out even better than the first couple of years – which would make this decade super fantastic.
And I’m a working girl (but not in a hooker kind of way) – I went to college, got my degree & joined the workforce at 22. I was one of the lucky ones to land a job right out of school doing exactly what I went to college to do. I actually accepted the job a few weeks before graduation. I know that is not how it is usually done. And I am grateful & know that I am blessed.
I like the field I chose – it’s interesting, it’s evolved / changed over the years. And even after 20 years I still want to learn even more about it. I love new ideas & seeing how others are incorporating them – are they effective? Are they not? Etc. (Of course I have thoughts of – oh, I didn’t realize a wine sommelier was a job. Or why did I not decide to be an interior designer.)
And even though I’ve been doing this for so long…. And even though I know that for the most part, I know what I’m doing…. And even though I know that the people I come in contact with enjoy working with me…. I sometimes still wonder if this is what I’m supposed to be doing. I sometimes still wonder do I really know this?
And then yesterday something happened that took me by surprise & left me astounded. I learned that someone in the same field. Someone I respect, admire & learn a lot from constantly. I learned that this person holds me in very high regard. That she learns from me constantly.
And that awakened in me a stranger. Someone I didn’t fully recognize was there – the me who for the past 20 years has been searching for the person I aspire to be. That person is slowly being revealed to others. I didn’t realize it. I know I still have a lot to learn – and I definitely don’t want to stop growing. But I’m grateful to know that I’m making a difference in this world of work I’m in. Even starting now to think that maybe this really is what I’m supposed to be doing.
I’m realizing that I’m blessed beyond measure. And that is a realization to keep at the forefront of my mind & at the ready for when the trying days come.