Thursday, August 29, 2013

Week 42

“Everything needs a break.” – Toba Beta

OK – so as I’m getting closer to hitting the 52 weeks mark, I decided to take a break. A break from Facebook that is. Which might not seem like a big deal to a lot of people. But actually take a minute, stop & really think about how often you are on FB. I was on it often. Not updating my own posts, mind you…. Just simply seeing what my post-happy friends were updating/posting. And I realized that I was really affected by checking my FB page. It is how I started my day. 

All my friends realize that I don’t post often. I think there are things that you share on FB & things that you just simply don’t.  And I have tried not to judge those who post way more often than I would ever imagine to post ( that sounded kind of judgmental, didn’t it? How to rephrase? Well, let’s just keep going instead of rephrasing)…. But I’ve never been one to post daily/update daily. I never check in with where I am. I figure only those in my true inner circle need to know where I am at any given time. I am in advertising/marketing & I should embrace all social media offers – but I don’t honestly subscribe to all the beliefs. No one needs to know if I am at whole foods or at the gym or beach or really where in this world I am physically at every moment of the day. 

Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy FB. I might actually fall into the FB stalker category. Because I use FB to just keep up with friends that I adore but do not live in close proximity to. And yes, I was checking in daily to see what everyone was up to etc etc.

But my FB-fast as I called it (which is odd because I’m not catholic & I’ve never fasted in my life – but I do grasp the concept) – my FB-fast was not as easy as one would think. Which proved my theory. It had a higher priority in my life than I wanted it to have. My month-free of FB will be complete on Sunday. I took the month of August off. (I need to vote for my niece’s school for the opportunity to win something or another that will benefit the school & of course ultimately my niece – in preschool of all things & I can’t vote until Sunday because I have stuck to my FB-free.)

It hasn't been easy. And I will confess that at the very beginning of the month – maybe day 2 or 3, a FB friend – a good friend from my past – mailed me a surprise package. I had no way of thanking her because return address was note included nor inquiring how she came about the surprise package except via FB. So – confession – I logged on to inbox her & thank her. That is all I did - scout's honor. And that was during the hard parts. The first 10 days of FB-free were the hardest. (maybe that’s what rehab is like – I hope to never experience that) It was hard but it was worth it.

I have spent nearly 30 days without reading my friend’s complaints,  aggravations, accomplishments &  joys. What is the trade-off? I sacrificed celebrating my friends’ joys to simply to get a firmer grasp on what I feel is important to have center stage in my own life.  To try & live my life of love, joy, acceptance.  You know – that age-old song – You’ve got to accentuate the positive. Eliminate the negative. Latch onto the affirmative. Don’t mess with Mister In-Between. Well I felt that FB was bordering on the negative & definitely fell into the Mister In-Between part for me. I wasn't accentuating the positive or latching onto the affirmative in my life - I was letting this technology get the better of me.

William Wordsworth said “Rest and be thankful.”  So I did & I am. I rested from FB. And as Toba Beta said – "everything needs a break" – I interpret that to even include FB. And I rested. And I am thankful. I am thankful for everyone in my life - whatever their role - FB only or more than. Positive or negative. I just want to learn from every experience. I don't want to stop growing. 

And I am thankful for my FB connections. Technology is a wonderful thing until it rules your life. And that’s all it was for me, this break – I just didn’t want it ruling my life & I felt like it was going there. I am thankful for my FB family. For those I can keep in contact with – more than just a Christmas card every December.  I am thankful there is a way to know what’s going on outside of my little realm.  And I’m thankful that I can recognize when it starts to get bigger than it should & it starts to take on more power than it should. 

I am rested & I am ready on Sept 1 to embrace it again without letting it get too big, take up too much room or take too forefront a position. I am ready to let it be a small part of my life - not start my every day or take over. Perspective.

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